Friday, January 04, 2002 :::
so yea, i'm sitting here at my mom's computer on my last night in san jose until...gosh, i dunno...maybe the summer. wow. it feels kinda weird now that i think about it. jay, i kinda get your jist, thought you have it worse...a whole year.
so here it is 1am and i've only been up for about 11 and a half hours. yes, i woke up at 1:30pm this morning. (yes, that is contradictory). you see, i went snowboarding yesterday. it was quite fun. i went with my friends from high school. we stayed in davis and drove to boreal, the roads were clear. as soon as we got there, though, it began to snow. and it snowed all day too. somehow my goggles got wet on the inside, so i couldn't see very well. my depth perception was all off. oh well. this being my 4th time snowboarding, i figured i was getting to be almost kinda good. my friend linh commented on that too. all that considered i wanted to do some jumps. they had some specially built jumps which were nice. i went up one, but didn't have enough momentum to get to the top, so i kind of fell off to the side. no biggy... so the next time around, i decided to take the big jump. i got going real quick and took the jump nicely. one thing though: while in the air enjoying my magnificant jump, i forgot that i needed to land. so i fell. landed on my tailbone. knocked the wind out of me. i caught my breath and continued down. nothing broken (as far as i can tell). but my tail bone hurts. yea, so the rest of the time, i was a wimp, just going down, nice and easy. didn't wanna fall on my already sore tailbone. on our way back, it was snowing pretty badly. chains were required. i didn't have any. tho i was in my dad's 4runner with 4wd, which had been on the whole day. luckily, there wasn't a check. i drove through the snow without any problems.
we got back, made ourselves a nice meal. for dessert we had my moms peanut butter cake. delicious! whenever my friends and i always take a trip...camping, snowboarding...and we make our own food, we always eat well....so later that night we played psychiatrist with my friend henry...he did pretty well figuring us all out...after that...our new favorite game: mafia. since there were only 9 of us, we had no nurse or sherif. just mafia vs civilians. it was quite a bloody battle. civilians only won once. how late did we stay up? yes, until 5am. and that's why i woke up at 1pm today. we ate breakfast. cleaned up. we tried to go to the jelly belly factory, but we got started too late. oh well. next time.
so here i am now, 12 hours after i woke up and i'm tired. man. oh well. it's to be expected. i don't blame me.
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i'm going back to school tomorrow. i'm ready to go back. i wanna see everyone again. see how their breaks went. my friend paul from cal poly has been kind enough to drive me. we're gonna go to the bball game tomorrow. it'll be fun.
ok LA folks, here i come. SJ people, farewell until next we meet.
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Monday, December 31, 2001 :::
I need to blog. I was going to blog last night. Had stuff to blog about. Wanted to. Didn't. Got distracted by, um, things. Lets not talk about that.
.dark.black.lackoflight.dimness.
so i was out reading my book in the family living room (is that what we call it ?). everyone else was asleep. i was enjoying my reading, but i felt like stopping. great book. action hadn't slowed down. wasn't tired. cd wasn't over. it, in fact, had just begun. didn't have a need to go online and see if anyone else was there. i just stopped. what now? go online? might as well. but first i had to pee. on my way to the bathroom i passed the family room. the room was dark, and i didn't think much of it, but the dying fire caught my eye. the embers were a glowing orange. where they still warm? probably not, but something about the room seemed somehow inviting. i peed and came back. i still had my headphones on and was listening to my cd.
i was in a mood. the mood where you just want to sit and do nothing, nothing but ponder. nothing specific. just let your mind wander. for me, two things that make the present mood even more inviting: darkness and music. why darkness? the place of nightmares. of evil. fear. no, the dark crevices of the mind are the homes for those. it just so happens that they sometimes take vacations to the dark. darkness sometimes helps me think, relax. maybe that's why we sleep in the dark? darkness frees you from thinking about your environment because you can't see it. since there's no light outside, where else to go? inside. and the music? i dunno. music is an amazing thing. music can change whole moods. find the song to fit your mood? find the key to your soul. it's like a drug? you feed off of it. it amplifies your emotions. god(can i use this word eventhough i don't believe?...that's another matter for another blog...), i couldn't live without my hearing. the loss of music? no. i cannot contemplate that. please refer yourself to the song, "American Pie" by Don McClean.
ok, i'm being distracted. need to blog. can't be distracted. all the lights in my room are off. now turning off the monitor to type without seeing the flashing im windows...
i can't do it. it's no comming. i can't blog. no use forcing it. this will have to be enough for now. maybe later. tomorrow? day after? we'll see.
Soup
1:00 AM:::
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