Thursday, March 21, 2002 :::
how odd. well, i guess not considering it's the first day of spring. it's a little bit before midnight, and any guesses as to what i hear? birds chirping outside. a bit disconcerting considering it's dark, but at the same time, it's refreshing. i haven't heard birds chirp in a long time...it remind me of home...
on another note.
something seemed odd tonight. it seemed like you were leaving something out in our conversation earlier, a big something. i hope it hasn't become weird. i hope...
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12:06 AM:::
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Sunday, March 17, 2002 :::
the only reason i don't tell you is because i don't want to complicate your life any further.
haha! i feel like someone else. any guesses?
appended:
haha. well, then.
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2:48 AM:::
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oh no! what happened to scott's blog?! it's gone! wtf wtf wtf!
don't worry, young grasshoper. this is the same blog. i merely changed the template. i think this one is kinda cool. it's a bid aynrandish with the statue-esque picture at left. all the links are purple. i don't want that, but i don't know how to get rid of it. oh well. this template was a bit more colorful when i frst got it: pinks and stuff. i took them out. i did a minor change, uploaded it, checked it, made another change, etc over and over. now blog won't publish. it's mad at me. oh well. c'est la vie. es la vida. that's life. deal.
and so i have been. i'm not nearly as depressed as i was about ryla. i am still sad, but i'm not the only one. i've spoken to alot of others who didn't get asked back. they're sad to and don't quite understand it. in my last blog i didn't explain the circumstances to it, but instead just my dissapointment. in the past, this is how things went: 26 total counselors, with only about 6 CITs, the rest real counselors. this year, however, the camp director decided to do things differently. he wanted to have a 50-50 ratio with 13 counselors and 13 CITs. his reasoning? he said that it was because he wanted to give younger people more of a chance to come back to ryla. ok, i can see that. makes sense. (however, one can't help but wonder about the monetary issue: counselors are $350 each while CITs are free.)
so i kind of half expected that i'd be one of the ones asked back since i just started as a counselor last year and thought i would be considered a younger person? no, not really. if you're gonna have half the counselors being unexperienced, you need veterans in there to help them out. that's not me. at least not yet. maybe never? (no, no, that's bad thinking. i will apply next year again.) so i kinda feel like it was left out in the gutter as the school bus drives off to camp without me. it's ok. i'll just go back home and read? haha. who am i kidding?
ok, that's enough. no more bitching about this for me. really. i mean it. i miss all my ryla people. it's weird. there hasn't been a flurry of email activity as there should be. it's odd. that's how we stay in contact. it's like a tornado tore through and everyone got blown away to different parts. still out there, just disjointed. should i be scared?
ok, scott signing out. time for bed. need to wake up at a resonable time to stuy for finals and to watch ucla beat cincinnati in the terrific 32.
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