Wednesday, April 10, 2002 :::
words of wisdom. i have none at the moment. wish i did. maybe i could use some. things are different now since we all got back from break. i'm not sure if it's me or other people or even exactly what is strange. before the quarter started and just as it did, i told myself i was going to work on a few friendships. things were going well, and then i went away for the weekend. now it seems things reverted to almost the way they were before. kind of wish i didn't go away. but no. i'm glad i did. i think it was good for me. but nonetheless, a proverbeal step backwards. that always seems to by my problem. i am always afraid of missing something. that one inside joke. the gossip. the drama. the goodtimes... maybe subconsciously, that's why i'm taking so few units this quarter and last. live it up while i can. the friendships i have now didn't happen last year to this same extent and quantity, and i don't want it to end, but here it comes, barreling at me, 8 weeks away. is that how everyone feels? holy crap, only one more quarter left. and then what? life in an apartment. no more dorms.
i was privy to most everything that was going on before break. now, i'm not. i'm out of the loop. i just feel like the old man who's hanging around simply to be a kid as long as possible. face it. i'm not. even before, i wasn't. was i fooling myself? i guess. identity crisis. i wish i could stay, but i can't.
is this what's been bugging me? maybe...
Soup
2:36 AM:::
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